I'm not sure why I didn't write this yesterday. Maybe it's because it's just too hard to even speak of. It is also the source of a lot only anger right now.
As many of you prepare to go to your place of worship I would ask that you please ask God for a specific miracle.
Lucy has lost her eyesight. Whatever (besides cancer) it is she fighting ( meningitis, infection, virus) has claimed her vision. No one is sure if it is permanent but Lucy does know she can't see. One of the last things she said to me was that she couldn't see. She then proceeded to cry herself to sleep and hasn't been very alert since then.
I guess it's a blessing she sleeps 24 hours a day. At least she isn't scared. However, if our ultimate goal is to try to get home and have any quality of life moments with her then her eye sight becomes a huge equation.
Please pray for miraculous healing for my child. Please pray for her eye sight to be restored. But most of all please pray for mercy and no suffering.
Yesterday, for the first time in about 15 months, I honestly prayed for Gods will to be done. I haven't stopped pleading and begging for my child's life but I can say that I am now prepared to accept her healing in any form.